life just isnt fair sometimes..

some friends of ours lost their 4 month old baby on Saturday morning they think to SIDS. I just cant even fathom what they are going through.. they lost a baby girl about 4 years ago too.. she had some chromosome disorder.. How and why should any 1 person have to struggle with stuff like this. Why is there no test or any way to determine if your child is at risk for sids? I was told the babys mom woke up and fed her a early morning bottle laid her back down and went to get her up in the morning and she was gone.. just like that.. I just cry and cry for them.. Jay went to see them that evening, but I stayed here with Ella.. I just dont get it.. I know everything happens for a reason and there is a plan for everyone and everything.. but it just down right isnt fair sometimes.. We have these great and loving parents with the rug pulled out from beneath them.. I dont know.. just thought I would spill for a bit.. oh we did go get one of the angel care monitors for Ella.. the alarm goes off if there is no movement (breath) after 20 seconds.. I struggled on whether to get one or not because they are a little pricey.. but we got one.. anyway.. please remember this family in your prayers and thoughts..

~~ the funeral was today. A beautiful service.. they seem to be holding it together as well as possible.. I didnt think I was going to be able to go in.. I stood at the back doors and saw the tiny casket and froze and then lost it.. I feel so bad for them and it all just hit me.. this could easily be me.. that could easily be Ella..I hate sids.. I hate the situation.. now I have this constant fear that something is going to happen to my baby..its just not fair one bit..

look what I found!

its my hand! and the closer it gets to my face the harder it is to see.. strange..
I also thought she found her ears, but the next day she started getting cranky and sleeping a whole lot... turns out it is her first ear infection..poor baby.. we started her antibiotics yesterday after her appointment.. hopefully this clears up fast and we have our happy ella bella back instead of evil ella.. lol.. those are her names my grandma assigned her for when she is moody =)
Cayden also has a cough and perhaps a little bit of a cold.. my first experience as a mom with TWO sick kids.. woo hoo.. its been a blast at my house..

this is how we feel today...

lets just pray its not as bad as some have speculated...

TODAY IS THE DAY !!!

to be heard and to stand up for what you do or dont believe in.. Dont forget to vote!





my babies this morning.. incase you are wondering they are both pro-life.. =)



This morning Cayden was talking about the mock vote at school and I asked who he was going to vote for and he said "McCain, Obama lets those doctors kill little babies!!" wow.. I didnt realize he has heard me talk about this before.. anyhoo.. happy voting!

oh yeah more incentive to vote.. I got this from another blog I read:

Dairy Queen is giving away free ice cream! Chik-fil-A is giving away free sandwiches or milk shakes! Ben and Jerry's is giving away free ice cream! Eat 'n Park is giving away free coffees too! Krispy Kreme is giving away donuts!

Hardees is giving $1 off combo meals with an "I Voted" sticker. Shane's Rib Stack is giving away a free meal - 3-piece chicken tenders, fries, and a 20 oz. drink - to all customers who wear an "I Voted" sticker.

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the bat kids..

Cayden was batman and Ella was bat baby this Halloween.. we went trick or treating here in town with Erin, Tony and Elizabeth, and my cousin Charity and her baby Joey.. and Erins mom and my mom came along for the fun too :)

C was hot in his mask.. he didnt keep it on very long at all.. :)






Joey was a little less than thrilled with the whole experience.. at least we were having fun though :)