today its bad...

The flowers smell so beautiful

I tried to pick them and pull

They're nailed to the ground

I wanted to give them to you, but I can't now

There, the apple's of Edan I saw before me

I would have given you the whole tree

When I went to get that red fruit I was scared

Wishing that you were with me there

Went to bed with you on my mind

Watched the clock tick, but that didn't speed up time

Looked for you in my sheets I thought you hid in

I tried to remember where you had been

Walking with just my shadow by my side

I try to hug it, but we only collide

No one to wipe the tears again today

I had to curl my finger up and wipe the drop's away

I wrote a letter to explain how I felt

When I did the sentences only seemed to melt

Three words came through,

The only thing written on the page was: “i miss you”

I am still on internet break, but wanted to share this..today is hard..I keep coming back to the computer as if something on it will make me feel better..sigh..

unplug..

Lately I have been in a bit of a slump..I read everyone post's and am still following..but I've had a lack of words, or words that seem to make any sort of sense..I feel like I am so plugged into everything online, that whats going on around me has just fallen to the side..I love all of my "old" and new bloggy friends and facebook friends, and all of the other way I network. I have been introduced to such beauty through this loss..I've seen people give and pray and love people they have never met in real life..and for people I do know in real life, have for the most part, been more than we could ask for..but for now, I think it is time to unplug for a while..I do get my messages on my phone for email and facebook, so I will read them as they come in and respond if needed..but I have to step away from the computer..I need to refocus, regain composure and work on the relationships around me now..so for a few week.. I am going to unplug from it all..I am always available if anyone needs to talk or advice, just msg me..but for a bit, that will be the extent of my networking.. still praying and thinking of you all..

xoxo

if you have a few minutes..

hop on over to my other blog and check out the mito video I just posted.. explains exactly what happens when one has mito..Its all about awareness..thanks.. I will have a real post soon..I'm still reading and following, just in kind of an strange mood lately, so comments have been few and far between..hopefully I get out of this funk pretty soon..