Monday, August 16, 2010

Now, I know...

I knew we wanted you before you were born.
I knew you would be loved to heaven and back, no matter what.
I knew you would melt your daddys heart the minute you two met eyes.
I knew we would be attached at the soul from the second I first heard your heart beat,
you were mine and I was yours forever.
I knew you were the most beautiful little girl from the second we laid eyes on your perfect face.
I knew that the sound of your soft voice was music to my ears, I'd listen to you jabber and couldn't help by gleam with joy.
I knew your soft skin needed to be shaded, gaurded and protected, and I knew it was our job to protect it from harm.
I knew your sweet eyes always looked as though they were holding a secret..
I knew I would hold you for hours on end and not even think about anything else..
I knew you were sent straight from Heaven and the answer to our prayers.

I did not know that you were going to only be staying for 8 months and 29 days, this must have been the secret you could not share.
I did not know that it was possible to feel so much pain for another person.
I did not know what it truly was to be rendered completely helpless.
I did not know your voice would one day be silent, and we would do anything for just another rambling.
I did not know that you would fade before our very eyes.
I did  not know that someone so little could fight so hard.
I did not know that that we had you sweet girl, only to say good bye.
I did not know it would still hurt this bad 15 months after losing you.
I certainly did not know that you wouldn't be here to celebrate your 2nd birthday..

Now, I know...

10 comments:

Heather said...

It was beautiful and heart wreching at the same time and made me cry. Praying for you Jen.

Lisette said...

((HUGS))

brigette said...

This is beautiul!! I am so sorry sending much love

Kelly said...

You're in my thoughts today. (((HUGS)))

clarissa said...

saying a prayer for you!

The Blue Sparrow said...

Oh Jen, I wish I had the right words. This was such a beautiful post! I'll be praying! (((HUGS)))

Lori said...

Beautiful, sorrowful and amazing words. I'm so sorry she's not with you.

Lifting you up today...

shan said...

So beautifully worded, such true statements...

jill said...

Beautiful post. I'm so sorry for your loss. *hug*

Kristin said...

Here from Mel's Roundup...How beautiful and how tragic. I am so sorry for your continued loss and pain.