Friday, March 5, 2010

not enough..

When Ella was sick there was nothing to be done. No treatments, no cure..just treat her symptoms the best that we could. To love her with everything, to be committed to her, to her well-being and health, it just was simply not enough..Since she has passed, we have been searching for something to help us, cayden and our family in general, something to fill our broken hearts. We would love another child of our own right now, but its just not logical for us.. maybe one day..but now there are so many risks of another sick child, and we just cannot bear it..sooo we have been searching for an answer, been praying for guidance..and Jay and I have decided to foster a child (maybe 2).. all we could do for Ella just was not enough, but its all these kids need..even if its just a night or two, we are making a difference.. We are only going to take in girls 0-2 for the time since all we have extra is a crib and a pink room, but its a start.. and since we have made this decision..we have a sense of peace. We met with a DHS worker this week and are going to begin training as soon as I get all of the paperwork in.. It could take up to 90 days to have everything done (training, home studies, etc etc) but in the mean time.. we wait and do what we need to do.. so this is our news, and it seems as though right now, things are on the right track..I still have bad days..but they are getting a tad bit easier...  

12 comments:

2awesomekidz said...

Hi,
What a wonderful thing to do! I am happy for you guys! You have so much love to give! Keeping you in thought and prayer!
Tami

Heather said...

What a wonderful thing you all are going to do.

With Out My Punkin said...

What a wonderful thing to do, good foster parents are needed very bad! You did what you could for Ella it was not your fault. (((((HUGS))))))

Megan said...

Wow what a great idea!! *hugs* that is so awesome of you to do!

Lisa said...

That is the most selfless, giving and loving thing- to give your hearts to another child when all you really want is Ella... I pray that God will bless your decision and bring you so much more peace through it! Looking forward to hearing about your plans coming to fruition and having the joy of a little one in your home again!

lost--for--words said...

You are an amazing family to do this. Ella's memory will continue to live on in the gift of love that you will be providing your foster children. I know what a helpless feeling it is to sit next to your sick (and dying,) child and not being able to do anything to 'fix' them. It has got to be the most torturous thing a parent could possible have to face... I know it often consumes me...

Franchesca Cox said...

Jen, I am so proud of you for doing this. This is awesome, praying for your heart. xx

Kelli with Love said...

Jen, you guys are amazing and so inspiring. Ella is so lucky to have had a Mommy as wonderful as you.

Holly said...

This is a really great thing you are doing. I hope all the training and paperwork go well. You'll be great foster parents to whatever little girl(s) is placed with you.

Once A Mother said...

wonderful! what a beautiful idea.

Debbie said...

That is awesome...
loving on babies who so desperatly need a safe, loving home...
what a blessing you will be to those children.
Will keep you in my prayers as you start this new calling...hugs.

Mary said...

I am so glad that you have found something that will ease your heart. Ella is a very proud little girl.