Monday, October 18, 2010

randomness...

I really have nothing original to say for the ICLW for this month, so if you are new to my blog, start in the tabs above, working left to right and you will see where we've been, and where we are now and where we hope to be in the future.. can't wait to hear from you!


Cayden has left on a cruise to to Jamaica (and a few other stops) with his Granny and Papa and Nana and a ton of other family. I am so excited for him to go and have such wonderful memories made with his grandparents. However, I am a bit sad at the same time that I am not with him to experiece these 'firsts'  He called when they arrived Saturday evening, so excited that he got to walk in the ocean.. We talked for a little while and once he was off the phone, the tears came flowing..I have never been away from him for 8 days. Jay recently started a new job and could not ask off and we couldn't take little miss with us, and I certainly did not want to leave her that long, so it was not an option for us to go with him..so we'll see how I am feeling by the end of the week.

Little miss is feeling better, still not sleeping through the night, and she is almost 7 months old (shouldn't she be?) She is a little high maintenace, and makes it hard to get stuff done at times, but she is an absolute joy to have. Last night she dropped her binky and Jay said 'uh ohh' and she repeated it! she claps her hands when we sing patty cake, she jumps when we say 'jumpy jumpy jump!" and she dances when we say 'my name is ___ and I like to DANCE!!!" she gives huge open mouth sloppy kisses and hair pulling hugs and we love it! She however will not let Jay rock her to sleep because she thinks his job is to play and have fun, so I am not really sure what to do about that, but its not really a big problem. She has visitation once a week with her parents and so far does pretty well. They go back to have a non jury trial the week of Dec. 6th, so I guess at that point we will find out whats going to happen with her. Luckily, no more of her family or friends have tried to get custody anymore. Her worker says she thinks that they tried their 'cream of the crop' and they didn't pass..soooo..we'll see...some days I just know it will all work out, and others it seems like its too good to be true..

Sometimes I think about taking another one, maybe a toddler, but its just not logical for us right now..my  mom keeps her so I can get some work during the day, and to add another one on top of it is asking a bit much I think..not to mention our poor little jeep would be jammed packed.. I guess it all stems from my "trying to save the world complex" I think I would be a child hoarder if I had unlimited time, money, space and other resources..

soo..I was following a couple blogs that are now private, so if you follow us and have a private blog, shoot me an email and I will follow you((if you want))  I also need to update my roll call blog list thing..if you follow me and I don't have your blog added, leave me a comment and I will work on adding/editing in the next few days. I have some friends/family IRL that blog, BLM's, mito fams and now foster/adoption fams, so I will figure out how I want to list..hmmm...  I have attempted to comment on several blogs and for whatever reason, it won't let me use my google sign on, some I can use the open ID, but some it wont? anyone else having issues?

still with me? this is a incredibly random post, but I guess life is pretty random :)

12 comments:

Holly said...

I haven't had any trouble commenting today so not sure what is up with that.

I hope that Cayden has a good time on the cruise. That has to be pretty exciting for him! I'm sure you miss him!

Brittanie said...

I just found your blog, through networked blogs on facebook. I just spent the last hour reading through Ella's story. (((hugs))) My Cora Rei was stillborn in 2006, so understand what it's like to have a hole in your heart. She is such a beautiful little girl.

And my two living children (my rainbow babies), neither of them slept through the night at 7 months. Erin started at about 9/10 months and Patrick will be 20 months in 6 days and he still regularly wakes up at night. So...yeah. It's normal for Little Miss not to be right now too.

I hope that Cayden has a blast on his cruise

Lisette said...

I think it's wonderful that Cayden has that opportunity to travel like that with his grandparents.

Michelle and Sean said...

I've been following your blog for a little while. Actually almost two years when we found out that it was very likely our daughter had a mitochondrial disease. Turns out she does have one.

I really hope things will work out with this sweet baby for you and your family!! You guys seem so perfect for her!!

brigette said...

Your so sweet!! I love this random post!! I hope it all works out with lil miss!! :0)

Calmly Chaotic said...

Just visiting your blog for the first time! That must be hard not being able to experience your son's first cruise! Hopefully you will get to go on a trip like this one time soon. Looking forward to following along your journey with your little one!

Megan, aka LadyofMoonlight said...

Hi, visiting for the first time. We have two through adoption, though we didn't do foster care. You are so much braver than us! Granted, our county has no fost/adopt program and a really awful track record with fostercare adoptions. Y'all are in my prayers, hoping you keep this precious little one!

Also, my 12 month old wasn't sleeping through the night at 7 months. Kids can start it at all ages, some within weeks, some after 2 years. He's STTN now, thankfully, but at 7 months he was still up just about every hour of the night!

Sharee said...

That cruise sounds like a fabulous opportunity for your little man! I can completely relate though to wanting to share those "firsts" ...

My li'l lady is not trying to be rocked by her big brother, either. She will give him a kiss and barely tolerates a hug! They're funny! Oh ... and my 3 y.o. still does not sleep consistently through the night (not that I'm speaking that one over you!! lol).

RELH said...

What an amazing story.

I look up to people like your family.

ICLW #26

Coates Family said...

Hi Jenn, I am not even sure what to say. I have been checking in on your periodically since I came across you blog back in May. I never comment because the words all seem so inadequette. I am amazed by your strength. One of my dearest friends lost her (grown) son in 2009 and I read a lot of grieving moms blogs to help me to be able to help her. I don't pretend to understand the heartache that either one of you feel but I want to understand as much as possible so I can be there for her. I hope you don't mind me checking in on you.

Sarah S said...

Happy ICLW!

I hope Cayden's had a great time with Grandma and Grandpa!!

ICLW #93

daega99 said...

Happy ICLW!

You have such a fascinating story!

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