Thursday, December 2, 2010

inconceivable...

Her worker called and I waited til last minute to pick up the phone. I was so afraid of bad news. She said 'they are terminated' and I began to weep. I couldn't even get a word out..finally, I was able to spit out 'thats wonderful'..she told me that a worker from another county came and testified about their history and losing the previous 3 children. The D.A presented evidence they had and she told her findings. They have 30 days to appeal the decision, but the court appointed lawyer withdrew when the parents no showed, so they would have to pay for their private attorney, and if we are being honest, what are the chances of that? and even if they were to appeal, the judge was very much in favor of LM's best interest, which do not include her bio-rents.

I spent most of last night and earlier this morning thinking of how we, as a family, would get through losing her. I psyched myself out by expecting things to not go in our favor. I still am half way expecting a 'but wait..' sort of call..Her worker said that they have to make sure all immediate family has been notified and given a chance, ((which she said they have been, more than once)) and that an adoption worker would be contacting us. I feel like I have just given birth in a strange sense, I feel like she truly belongs to me now,  I feel hopeful.. and I havent felt this happy, truly happy in 2 years..joy? what is that?? I just don't know what to do with it.. "welcome back old friend, stick around a while"... She didn't come from my body, and its nothing I would have imagined, but she is my rainbow, she is my beauty from the pain..she is our new hope...

18 comments:

Mary said...

Jen, I couldn't be more happy for you. If not having her in their lives didn't make them do whatever it took to keep her, then those people don't deserve her. Your heart was pure, giving and open for love again and you are being blessed.

Lori said...

Just so overjoyed and thrilled....I pray that the upcoming days and processes are smooth and she is permanently and forever cemented in your family!

Such a blessing!!!
xoxoxoxo

Sara said...

Praising God with you Jen over this good news:)
Sara

Tiffany said...

♥♥♥♥
what wonderful news! keeping you in my thoughts and prayers that everything is finalized quickly.

2awesomekidz said...

Amazing Jen!! SO very happy for you and keeping you all in prayer!
She is so lucky to have each other!Tami

Bree said...

watching my sister go through it five times, i had a feeling the bio parents wouldn't show. i'm so glad they didn't. not that would have had a chance anyway. i am so thrilled for yous sweet rainbow. what joy she had brought to everyone. xo

Bonky's Mom said...

AHHHHHHHHHHHH! HAPPY SCREAMS! I am SO THRILLED for you! I was praying this morning for you guys and I'm excited for you! Hug that precious baby girl from her cyber aunt! : )

PotterMama said...

God is great! I'm so happy for you & your family.

Clarissa said...

yay! so happy for you!

Mary said...

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!! Enjoy your little girl!

brigette said...

This is so amazing!! I am so excited for your guys!! You so deserve this sweet little girl to bless your lives!!

Michelle and Sean said...

Just got back in town and getting caught up!! This is great news! I am so happy and hope that things move quickly from here to get everything done.

Those pics you posted of Ella a couple posts back are beautiful!

Mrs. Fosta said...

Congratulations on your good news! What a little blessing. I will certainly keep you guys in my prayers.

Thanks for the kind words on my blog...I will be checking back with you all.

MamaFoster said...

oh my word, that is amazing! i don't know the whole story but I am just so thrilled to hear that the right thing was done!

Foster mama K said...

Congraultations!!! I have tears running down my face. A little bit of joy has been restored! What a bitter sweet story. HUGS

Mrs. Fosta said...

First I want to say thanks for the kind words on my blog. I'm a little behind on my blogging so I starting reading and commenting on your older post first.

OMG! I was just hoping and praying that the rights would be terminated soon. Praise God! I just starting crying when I read those words - God's perfect plan!

Maryann said...

Great news! So happy for you and your family. Praying for a speedy adoption and hoping you can breathe a little easier now :)

Elisabeth said...

YES! Praise God. Praying for an uneventful 30 days!