Thursday, April 1, 2010

a world of pastel hell...

Am I being unreasonable to think that there should be a store with mens, womens, and jr boys clothes only..maybe some house ware stuff, but certainly not anything for baby girl-toddler girl.. No cutsie little Easter dresses with cute little hats or bows, and certainly no cute little pink shoes that would go perfectly with these great little pink lace leggings that I got from a craft show last year.. Or a segregated store for bereaved parents maybe? where you must walk through a separate door to enter little girl and another for little boy items..? that way its not in your face every time you turn around..and while we are doing that, how about commercials for 10$ kmart dresses, sears, kohls, anywhere like that.. maybe a block button on the remote? Thats not too much to ask for right? I know what you are thinking, its been almost a year..Get over feeling tearful over ridiculous things such as seeing little bows, hats, etc..here is the thing though..do I go the other way when I see these things? no..that would make sense..of course I walk to the items..touch them and imagine my girl wearing them.. Shake away the tears that are about to show themselves and walk away..

*sigh* I must go shop for our Easter clothes tomorrow..I have put it off for long enough.. I must dive head first into the world of pastels and cuteness.. a pastel hell if you will..either that or we could all wear something we have already..which for me is all black or all brown..and at hubbys request, I will buy something of color.. actually we have decided to wear pale pink and sport our green mito ribbons in honor of sweet girly..

Last Easter she was still with us..so frail and sick..she had a hard time being around lots of noise because the stimulation triggered her seizures which triggered aggravation, which triggered more sedatives.. This Easter she spends in Heaven.. so much better than last for her.. and as for me, I am going to remain positive, I will be thankful for the time I have with my family that is still here with us on Earth, I am going to smile and enjoy the holiday instead of sulk and feel sorry for myself that she is not here..(IE every holiday from May 09 til now)..Well that is my rant..If I don't post before then, I hope you all have a wonderful Easter weekend..

10 comments:

Franchesca Cox said...

No, it's definitely not too much to ask for. I too find myself drawn to these items instead of avoiding them. Thinking of you, and hope you have a wonderful Easter weekend too. I admire your perspective! I am going to try to hold onto that this weekend as well. XO

Once A Mother said...

i too find myself hating everything "little girl." it is impossible to see these things and not think, how would she look in this? how cute would this bow/dress/outfit be? The thought of easter egg hunts and bonnets makes me want to just cry. I am right there with you, I totally get it.

Peace xx

Mary said...

Easter seems impossible for those of us with girl losses. Everything about it is about the dress, clothes, shoes, the pastel...

I don't have the resolve you have. In fact, I decided to not get the boys new outfits because I can't go into the store. So what will they wear? The suits they wore to her funeral...*sigh*

The Ramirez Family said...

I think you are on the right track. I have an addiction to these things But mine a baby boy. I should be picking out his first easter outfit , but instead I am coloring easter eggs to remember him by. I hope you can find peace this weekend. Happy Easter.

Mary said...

It is hard to walk by the boys section. But when the holidays come the outfits seem to be even cuter. It makes it even harder.

Hope you find some peace on Easter.

Sending you hugs.

Mackenzie's Mommy said...

You are not alone. I want that baby girl free store too. I don't want to be drawn to the onsies with ladybugs on them only to wish I had my little ladybug to buy them for :( I'm refusing to go to church on Easter because I can't bear to see all the baby girls in their Easter dresses and everyone oohing and ahhing over them. I'm glad you will be making a point to enjoy the day. I'll try to do the same <3

Debbie said...

Jen...
thinking of you and your family...praying you can find some spark of joy and peace this Easter season...God bless you my friend.

Michelle said...

I left a little gift for you on my blog. www.missingjuanito.blogspot.com

With Out My Punkin said...

((HUGS))

Holly said...

I didn't even go shopping. I just threw a dress on Kyndra and that was that. We didn't have sandals for her so she wore her grungy tennis shoes