Saturday, April 17, 2010
In our resource parenting class today, the topic was loss and grief and being a loss manager for the kids we will take into our homes.. it.was.heavy. I listened and could not chime in..if I spoke they would start..one tried to sneak out here and there by I would wipe it away before they could be released..There was a stick person on a page and we had little stickies to describe things that are important to us.. and we filled our page and the last one was to describe a positive character trait about ourselves.. So I have always been told I was fun and easy going. so I put this..and one by one we took them off of our page and the last one was to take off this character trait, because without all of the things that makes us up, most likely that will change.. Yes it changed.. I did not lose everything, but I lost 1 of the 2 of my everything..and I can assure you, as of late, FUN would not be used to describe me..I miss the old care-free person I once was..It literally is like that part of me is gone too.. anyway, We talked about these families, kids, their entire world being rocked by complete devastation..and everything in my heart and mind was affirmed..this is what is right, I feel as though we have the tools to help, to acknowledge and validate their pain and heal together.. they are broken, and we are broken..it just makes sense.. I am somewhat numb this afternoon/ evening..feeling a little heart sick with a little hope for the future..