Wednesday, December 30, 2009

sweet baby girl....

I am so sorry about all the blood they took, I am sorry about the spinal tap, CT's and xrays that was done needlessly a year ago today, the IV in your sweet little head.. I am sorry about all of the monitors and leads all over your body.. I am sorry I was not stronger for you.. and I am sorry I could not do it all in your place and Ella, I am so so sorry I could not give my own life to save yours..

8 comments:

Franchesca Cox said...

No words, just I'm so sorry. Wish I could give you a hug.

XOXO

margaret said...

I'm sorry too. For all of our babies. Ella should be at home with you.

Lea said...

So sorry, Jen. I know the mommy guilt all too well. Just know that Ella knows you love her, you continue to love her and honour her... she is a beauty.

Karen said...

Sorry for your pain. (((Hugs)))

Nan & Mike said...

I know nothing will ever heal your heart, but you are never alone and we are all giving you a big hug. I am so sorry you have to feel this way. Love, Nan xo

Just Breathe said...

She knows that and she loves you.

Bree said...

This is heartbreaking, Jen. I'm so sorry for all she went through, for all you went through.

Once A Mother said...

i understand and know how you are feeling. praying that some peace comes to your heart. so sorry that our babies had to endure so much. the guilt is so hard to let go of. thinking of you.

peace xx