time wasted....

you always hear people talk about wasting time by doing this and that, reading books, blog hopping, video games, laying in the pool on a hot day...doing all of these things instead of working, cleaning house, doing yard work etc etc.. I am guilty of it too.. I should be doing this instead of this.. but when you are with your kids, family and friends is it really REALLY wasting time?? When Ella was still here I laid by her and held her, played with her, we all did..my house was a MESS..my car and yard were both unkept..but I don't regret it at all.. it was NOT wasting my time.. and since we knew she was sick, we didn't think of it as wasting time.. but here I am again.. I will be playing in the pool with Cayden and be thinking how I should be doing laundry..but why? Just because he is not sick, its not okay to "waste time" with him? or if I am playing uno, pictionary or even scene-it on the 360 with our friends, its not wasting time as long as it is something we enjoy and doing it with those I care about.. I am sure on my death bed that I am not going to think of how I could have gotten that last load of laundry in, or how if I would have worked just a little bit more, I would have been better.. its the midnight sugar donuts with Cayden, its the Monday pizza night and watching our shows and laughing, its the laying on the couch with Ella on my lap, Cayden and jay next to me watching a movie..these are the gifts I have been given.. who I am I to not be thankful for the blessings that our God has given?? anyhow that is my shpill for today.. I will be working a few hours and then off to waste time with my perfect son and lovely niece Makayla..

all of these pics, I am pretty sure I could and should have been doing something else, but I am glad I wasn't..I could post hundreds more, but these are just a few.. of wasting time...












I will never regret letting my house go for months and months..just to hold her hand.. I knew each day was another blessed day with her.. what we fail to think about, is that all of our days are numbered, some have more and some have less..but for me..its about today...since I don't have to worry about my eternity( thank you Jesus) all I have is today.. I am not going to waste it....

One today is worth two tomorrows.
~ Benjamin Franklin