September secret garden meeting..

this is a group that I found of other moms who are dealing with the loss of a child..each month there is a topic that the participants write about.. this months is about what has helped you since your loss..
What has helped you through out this new life the most. Is it your family? your faith? Support groups? A ritual? Music? Physical activity? A new interest? It could be anything. Tell us about how whatever it is has helped you. Please feel free to share photo's,videos, websites, support group information and so on.

My family and friends have been wonderful since we found out she was ill and they do their best to check in on us since her passing.. I have not joined a support group or anything like that.. I have thought about it, just never did.. unfortunately, I have a few friends and family members that have gone through the same loss over the past few years.. I do talk to them.. ask alot of questions..if they did this or that.. it seems to help.. Also my blogging friends.. reading all of your thoughts, stories and getting to know you and your children helps.. Sometimes I have all of these ramblings in my head that don't seem to make much sense.. and I put them on the screen and it all comes together.. so blogging has been one of the biggest factors.. Often I have things I want to say and I just can't get them out of my mouth.. either no one around, not the right timing, afraid I will just lose it.. so I put them here..
My husband and son are my life line..they are the reason I bother to get out of bed.. they make me smile when it seems impossible, laugh so hard I cry.. I never thought I would do that again.. I cry at random times and they hug me and let me know its okay.. I don't have to say why I am crying..they just know.. and sometimes they know I need to cry alone..get it out.. so I can move on with my day.. they know the loss I feel, because they feel it too..My faith in God.. knowing she is better, knowing she is waiting on us to get there.. that helps.. I realize this post is all over the place, but I can't really pinpoint what it is that helps.. sometimes I need things from different places.. if that makes sense.. ? and sometimes none of the above helps, and I just have to call it a day and accept my defeat..try again the next day..

I listened to this song a while back.its my current fav.. it makes me think of the end of my time on earth here..how beautiful it is going to be.. It makes me so excited about the security of my salvation.. I love knowing beyond a shadow of doubt, that I will see my daughter again!